in the 'I' ... easing through Life-Storms, a nonfiction spiritual adventure by teZa Lord, aka LordFlea

‘I’ — the MOST important thing to know

look deep within---it's YOU!

look deep within—it’s YOU!

To know your own self, and to love that self within, is the most important thing for any of us to do in life. This is the highest achievement one can have, ever! Seriously. All the titles, degrees, uber or simple contributions to humanity, celebrity or public recognition, or none at all, add up to a pile of beans if a person hasn’t yet met their inner ‘I’ — the eternal, magical Self (the Higher Self) that resides within each of us.

This ‘I’ is also called Self Love. And it’s true what they say, you know. It’s impossible to love anything or anybody else if a person hasn’t yet learned to love their own Self. Because we are all reflections, mirrors of each other. If you learn to love that essence within, your true Self, you can see that love in another person reflecting back, or the entire family of humankind, including both its foibles and greatness.

I’ll give myself as an example. Once upon a time I somehow got stuck in self-loathing. Circumstances in my early life took me there, and it took me quite a while to even recognize I was “stuck there.” My parents did the best they could, but they were dealing with the demons of my dad’s alcoholism, a real family-wrecker. Addictions of any sort are.

By the time I reached adolescence I wanted to shut off the noise of self-hatred, so I became a teenage drunk (drugs weren’t available back then in the Stone Age) and began to numb the self-loathing. Having always loved making art, I pretty much documented my journey. From that place of utter and complete inner confusion, to finally reaching a bottom, and then being fortunate and humble enough, desperate enough, to ask for help. And getting it! Pursuing it! Luckily, I had great teachers. My journey, my inner journey, knowing who and what I am, began when I chose to put down the drugs and alcohol that had ruled the entire first half of my life, from age fifteen to thirty-six. Earlier, I never thought I’d ever make it past my 21st birthday, so intent was I about obliterating myself because I couldn’t take the pain of living.

That is when my spiritual journey began. As a sober person. Then I began to have a love affair with my “inner Self” — the real me — not the “bad girl” one my harassed and distracted (by their own isms, intolerance, and judgment) parents told me I was. I realized that my inner Self and All around me were One and the same. We are all connected. I felt it! Now that I no longer held a shield between myself and … this existence called life.

No matter how, which way, or when I tried testing this theory of Oneness, I experienced it viscerally. But only after I put down the self-loathingness of my using chemicals (and bad relationships) to put myself down. My work changed. I took all the pre-‘I’ stuff to the dump. From then one my work has honored the sacred in ordinary life.

we are ONE: what affects one of us, affects us ALL

we are ONE: what affects one of us, affects us ALL

To know one’s own true Self is the greatest gift we can ever have! And best of all, we can give it to our own Self. You don’t need someone to hand it to you. You don’t need to “earn” it. It’s every single person’s birthright, to explore this inner Self, what I call the ‘I’ within.

Now I’m publishing a book about that journey within! It’s a journey to consciousness in the disguise of a story about how I taught yoga and meditation to teenage juvies in a hardcore lockup. And the first thing I told all my students? “I’m just like you are … only I didn’t get caught as young as you did!”

Heal Psychic Wounds

We all have to Heal Our Psychic Wounds

I’m just days away from the actual publication date, when the book will be uploaded to Amazon! I’m so excited, because this book is the culmination of, literally, 30 years of work. Not just the sitting down at my desk and writing the true story, the dialogue quirky characters speak contained within this nonfiction narrative, but the years before that, of having worked on my own inner Self. The decades it took to for me to learn to let go of self-hatred and embrace Self-love.

I’ll be sharing where you can purchase this book very soon, my friends! There will be a 5-day period on Amazon when you can purchase it digitally for only $.99!! Imagine! But you can also get a beautifully printed (on demand) tree-book. You’ll get 30-years of LordFlea’s development, all for a price less than a cup of Joe at Starbucks. Isn’t that ironic!?

I love this age we’re living in. My book launch is completely through the internet, so spread the word! shout it from the rooftops! Visit my mothership tezalord.com (yes, LordFlea is really teZ-ahhh!) or use the contact sheet below, and sign onto my Army of Love (meaning, join my email list, ha!). That’s so I can keep you posted about upcoming events, interviews, and other cool things I plan on doing. Like the TWO BOOKS I’ll be publishing as soon as in the ‘I’ is birthed. That’s right! I’m busy!

I’m also in the middle of making an audio-book! Many of you might prefer to hear me read the story, complete with all the animated insights of a love-to-read-aloud person, not to mention the author herself.

My consort Carter and I made a movie together and I love acting! We have been reading to each other in bed (besides other things there) since we married, twenty-six years ago. I was 7 years into my new life of “loving my Self” when we got hitched. And I can guarantee you — I would never have been able to even recognize him as being “a lover” if I had not done the previous Self-inquiry, introspection, and purification that’s part of getting rid of crap we don’t need, the psycho babble stuff, and embracing the soundless, wordless, blissful state of knowing my true Self.

A blessed day to you, and keep coming back here for updates on …. the book! check out the glorious endorsement Yann Martel, author of Life of Pi graciously gave In the ‘I’!!

in the I COVER

contact me here if you wish to sign onto my Army of Love!

how to write a book

one word at a time.

going to the Source for that one right word

going to the Source for that one right word

one sentence at a time, if you’re lucky it’ll be a good one that won’t take thirty re-writes.

one paragraph at a time that maybe, just maybe, will end up in the correct place and you won’t have to wonder why the heck you wrote that stuff there anyway.

one scene at a time, that throws some relevance onto the theme.

one thought at a time, that isn’t too overbearing or preachy.

one character at a time, who can be attractive even though a thorough scoundrel, or imperiously vilified to shed radiance upon the threads of goodness propelling the protagonist to finish his or her quest.

one page at a time, that might make it past the throw on floor pile, and have a life of future possibilities as it joins the others you’ve accumulated, the paragraphs, the sentences, the words . . . . sometimes taking years to amass, but always, always, the thought in mind that what you have to say will make a difference, maybe to just one other person, maybe to more.

one scene at a time . . . the story of life

one scene at a time . . . the story of life

“i am, therefore i art.” Art meaning, to me, visual arts and literature. I have a vision: Books can still change the world. Good books influence people like rarely other things do, even celebrity’s latest actions, even political movements that erupt with violence or well-intentioned actions. Books have the power to make people feel. Laugh, cry, think, hope—empathize with the characters.

I’m writing a book that I hope will help others to lighten up and laugh as they experience the pain, the inevitable pain, of growing up human on planet Earth. I’m at the final stages of editing, and out there querying agents and hitting up everyone, including family and vague associates, for contacts in the publishing world. So far I have some great editors and agents who are soon to receive my initial contact. But first . . . . I’m finishing my “last” edit of this spiritual adventure tale, with illustrations.

This is what it feels like to write the book I’m working on:

the feeling of writing a book, the stuff that keeps one going when things get tough, page after page, one word at a time

the feeling of writing a book, the stuff that keeps one going when things get tough, page after page, one word at a time

So dear friends, that’s why you don’t see me blogging every single day, or even every couple days. i’m BUSY!!! But when the book comes out, i’ll have a link here so you can all find it and read the amazing adventures of a spiritual warrior wannabe.

in the Light, lordflea